Either there is to much on my mind, or GOD has a funny way of communicating with me.
Something that most people don't know about me, or I tend to not talk about much (so that I am not looked at as weird) is that I have had communications with GOD. Mostly through visions or dreams or physical-like beings talking to me. They have only happened a couple of times, and usually are strong if I am extreamely spiritually intuned or going through a strong sense of dispair.
This time, GOD has showed up during my dispair.
As you guys know, I am quite depressed about my job situation. I had a dream last night that the company moved down the shore, and I wasn't able to work there because of the commute. Easy way out right? I wish. But what was interesting as I started remembering more things from the dream...
I was in one big huge house, with family, friends and strangers. The feeling I felt was... I was saving people. Saving people from what you ask? As corny as it may seem, from "themselves."
Ok, now I don't think I am a prophet or anything, but this really sounded to me something that GOD or Jesus would say. It was as if everyone had a problem, and I just ran around trying to help them. When I finished another, someone else needed my help. I would fly through the house as if I was some kind of superhero. My dreams can get like that. It was very overwhealming, but I handled it.
What does this all mean? As I was thinking about it at my desk this morning. Like most times when GOD wants to tell me something, it was voiced to me. What I heard was...
"you are the avatar of me."
What is an Avatar? I know that within the Hindu culture it is a GOD that takes on physical form for a special purpose. I know that in the christian sense, Jesus is an Avatar. Then there is the cartoon toon show that I always watch. Maybe I just been watching to much of the show. Or maybe GOD used the show to show me some kind of understanding.
So how am I the Avatar of GOD?
I questioned GOD, as I always do. And then I remembered an article I read awhile back. "10 Ways that Jesus showed his Love." Ok GOD, am I suppose to be using these virtues in my life? Why did I feel like GOD was smiling at me. lol. At that moment I felt comforted because it has been a minute that I have talked to GOD in this way. I guess I felt sad because I felt that I was so caught up in my life that GOD wouldn't send me these special communications. GOD does still care about me, and my day started becoming a little brighter.
This is just another Phoenix stage in my life. I have had a couple, and even documented some of them in my blog. I call it the phoenix stage because I feel like I am going to be reborn again... but I have to die to reach that new level. I have to hit the bottom to get to the top. Me leaving my job, not feeling creative, car breaking down is like my low. Me getting a new job that will be more creative, that will expense my new car will be the phoenix unleashing!
But I can't get there just me being me. I have to be the "Avatar of God."
The embodiment. The concept. The archetype.. of all the goodness and all the love that GOD IS.
Now how do I do that?
"You already know," GOD said.
TO BE CONTINUED...