Sunday, December 31, 2006

Christmas time is here!

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year.

Mostly due to my imagination being filled with physical trinkets that would enhance the viewing pleasure of such television shows at Masters of the Universe, Thundercats, and Ninja Turtles. But what do you expect from an 8 year old that always wants to create his own universe, and play out his wildest dreams. Is that not an amazing Christmas Gift?

Thanks Mom.

In reality, food and family was a close first. Oh what a joy, not only to spend time with Mom & Mom Mom, but uncles, aunts, cousins and various others from our extended family. Even the joy of my puppy running around chasing me on the furniture put a smile on my face.

Thanks Freeway.

Now, that I am older, the toys have diminished from twenty to two. My clothes have increased in style. Necessities of things for the apartment have increased. And, you can never go wrong with a video game... But the magic is different now. I truly focus more of my time, focusing on the History of Jesus, and creating a beautiful experience with loved ones. This year really took the Cake.

Thanks God.

Let me give a brief Run down of Christmas Day:

*• Christmas Eve was spent with Omar Ramone and his family. It's always feels good to be around them. The Downside, the family ate all the food before we got there! We was only an hour late, but my stomach couldn't stay and smile for another hour or so. I had Burger King. It was good! We were then invited to Omar's Friend Pajama Party...Whichh entailed, a straight couple and there children chilling in the house playing spades. Not what I expected!

*• Christmas Morning was spent with my "Handsome" Boyfriend! This was something I really wanted to do, wake up with him by my side. It felt really good, and I was very happy he was there. We got up around 8:00am to open gifts, just me and him. Please check out the photos above.

*• We then headed out to eat Breakfast at a Chuch near Fuzzy's House. While the eggs were quite wet, the rest of the bacon, sausages, and hashbrowns weren't bad at all. We were around a lot of older people, some down and out, but it felt good to be around them nonetheless. They gave out deodorant, shaving cream, and lotions... and even raffled off bikes! I didn't win a bike.

*• We then headed to Fuzzy's house to spend time with his family. One word: Drama. LOL. I'll let Fuzzy tell that story!

* Once we dashed out of there, we went back to my house and played a few video games. Calvin & Jermaine stopped by. It was great seeing them!

*• My Family was having dinner at my Granmother's house (who lives upstairs) and me and Fuzzy ended up there, as we all open presents, shared stories, and chowed down on German Chocolate Cake! I really enjoyed my family this year, and they really made me and Fuzzy feel comfortable.

*• Even though we were quite tired, we headed over to My Omar's House. We all exchanged gifts, and just relaxed in the bed talking and playing 20 Questions. Around 11pm we headed home, after a wonderful Christmas Day!

*• The Day After, we all went to Ruby Tuesday's to see Dreams Girls! What an amazing movie! Jennifer Hudson was great! Please check out the photos above.

Overall, I really felt an immense feeling of "family" from my friends to my relatives, and there is nothing more I could have asked for!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Reclaiming my name

I first want to thank everyone for their prayers, it means a lot to me.

I am ok as of right now, but my legal troubles are not over yet... but let me start from the beginning. As some of you may know, my Boss had offered me a car. It is a 1990 Toyota 4runner, with a new transmission, and only needs minor repairs. Later on down the line, I can even get new interior! This was truly a blessing. I called up the insurance company, and it was pretty reasonable. It would cut my expenses a little, but I felt that I had to move forward sooner or later. If it didn't work out, I could always just go back to taken the bus. So a couple of days later, I was riding in my new car!

Two weeks passed, and I get a call from my insurance company. They are telling me that my policy is going to be cancelled in the next 15 days. Why? "Seems that your license is suspended." Suspended? I just started driving two weeks ago! I have had my drivers license for only 3 years, and I have NEVER been pulled over by the police. NEVER! Seems like I had to get to the bottom of this. So I call Motor Vehicle, and they tell me I have unpaid tickets in my hometown. So I call the local Court House, and they tell me that I have 4 tickets, and 2 dating back 2 years ago! Not only that, but there is a warrant for my arrest!

What kind of Hell is this?

My day was shot since then. As soon as I get a new car, I can't even enjoy it. Sigh. So early the next morning I head to the court office to post bail, and get a trial date, because I'll be damned if I am going to pay 500 dollars of tickets I never got, AND GO TO JAIL! As I receive my papers on the details of what is going on, I find out that I was speeding, made a wrong turn, didn't have my seat belt on, and I didn't show a driver's license. Didn't show a driver's license? Shouldn't you go to jail for that? Then it hit me. Somebody must have been using my name to get out of paying for these tickets, but how? I knew I lost my wallet awhile ago (so I thought...), so maybe that got my information from then.

Then I looked at what car the tickets were issued under. Seems like it was under my mother's car! Now it couldn't be my mother, because she's a female, so that only leaves one person left... My Stepfather! He has stolen from me (in many ways) for the past 4 or 5 years. It was the reason why I moved out of my mother's house! Why in the hell is he doing this again!

So a couple of days later, I go to court. Let me tell you, court is not fun! It's crowded and long! I was so nervous. So I get up in front of the judge, and he tells me the charges. "I'm not guilty." He then looks at me, and tells me that I will need another trial and that I can bring any paperwork, evidence, and witnesses that can prove my case. Great, another two weeks to wait until this ordeal is over! On top of that, I can't press charges, because I can't prove that it is him. I need evidence. The only thing I can do is file a criminal complaint, and then bring him to trial (if he even goes). This is too much!

My second trial is in a couple of weeks. My main focus is to clear my name, and then I can persue putting my stepfather behind bars. Of course, this is very difficult for me to do, it being my mother's husband, but I can't put up with it any longer!

I'm praying a lot. Mostly for strength. It sucks that I have to go through all this, and its not even my fault. I'm losing money by taking off days at work, and it is very emotionally draining. But I am a part of God's legacy, and no one can take away who I am with GOD. So I'm here to reclaim my name and put it up to the most high, where it can't be touched!

Once again, thanks for the prayers, and I'll be posting more, outside of all this mess.
Life still goes on...

// ShawnQt //

Monday, December 11, 2006



Wednesday, December 06, 2006




...only a few more days away!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

they all left me : part 2

I first want to say that I am NOT breaking up with Fuzzy! So everyone can stop sending him e-mails & text messages, lol. I love my Fuzzy (Yup Yup) I love my Fuzzy!

I wrote the poem out of an insecurity I have felt over the years. I mean I was a virgin for 24 years.... Let me explain. While I have been intimate with a guy since I was 16 (kissing, oral, grinding), I have never had intercourse until I was 24. I lost my virginity to someone I loved who was also a virgin. It was a great experience, even though I was laughing the entire time!

Thinking: "Look at me I'm having sex!" LOL

Anyway... I was the top in that situation. The plan was for us to have a versatile relationship. But of course, the relationship didn't last that long. He may not know this, but when he told me that after we broke up, he topped somebody, it got me thinking...

Did he break up me because I wouldn't give him any azz?

I'm sure that wasn't the case, but my brain was on alert. Then, I started thinking about all my past relationships. Did any of them break up with me because of that? So somehow out of all of this, I gained a fear that if I didn't give it up, the guy would leave me.

Thus the poem...

We are doing fine. I'm not leaving him, and our transition into versatility is working on our own time. This is the reason why I don't discuss my sex life on here, LOL. Trust and beleive, me and my man are very satisfied with what we have... we just want to experience more. It just takes me a little bit more time then most. It's my body, and I'm entitled to that.

I like to share my life so that it may help someone else who may be going through the same thing. But all these jokes about making me a bottom, and taking dick has got to stop! Half of ya got "bottum" hangups to! So anyway... I hope everyone enjoyed the poem, and shout out to Playboy Adonis for his version (From the other man's point of vew) of my poem (check the comments section of the last post to read it).

So moving right along... DANCE VIDEO COMING UP TOMMORROW!

Luv Ya Blogopia,
// ShawnQt //

Sunday, December 03, 2006

they all left me

They All Left Me
By ShawnQt

You push me on the bed
Telling me to spread it.
You slam me against the wall
Telling me to take it.
There goes your hand roaming
So you can feel it.
Now you're in my ear whispering
So that I can give it...

...give you all I that I have to give,
So now my virginity, I misgive.

You Slam that dick on my ass,
Oooo... So you can turn me on?
Choke my neck in ecstasy,
Oooo.... So you can turn me on?
Rip my hole wide open,
Oooo... So you can turn me on?

All that you give me...

The hurt transfers from me to you,
Because once again,
My ass I haven't given you.

So what do you do?

You leave me after 2 months,
Because you say it's you, not me.

You leave me after 8 months,
Because we are not on the same wavelength.

You leave me after 2 years,
Because you want to be free...

Free to find you someone that can give you what you need.
Because my virginity is making your love recede.
Waiting until I'm ready is really not your speed.

Fine leave, they all left me.
I'm not the sexual beast that I claim to be.
I'm not as good as everyone when I'm down on my knees.
I can't always drop it like it's hot to the highest degree.
But I do know my love
will always make your mind become free.

But you don't want that.
You really just want my ass.
And if I don't give it to you,
Our love will never last.

So just leave...