Friday, November 27, 2009


Friday, November 20, 2009


Ever since I posted this video last Friday, I have been getting a lot of positive & emotional feedback. When the FIVEblackgUys had to do a Public Service Announcement, I knew I wanted to do something on Gay Bashing because of all the stories I have been hearing about, which really saddened me. I don't know how, but I was thinking of Rihanna's Russian Roulette in my head, and it just fitted. When I wrote the video treatment for the video, I actually cried.

There were two things I wanted to showcase, the words that people use to degrade homosexuals, much like the word, "nigger", and also show images of a gay bashing and how similar it is to the beating of African Americans during the Black Civil Rights Movement. I personally don't see no difference. People being hated and incurring violence because they are different then themselves is wrong. Period.

We are all the same as well. If you can feel the pain of our ancestors being beaten, then you can feel the pain of a homosexual just the same. We are all Human. We have to open our minds and spread more LOVE!

Thanks to all the News Blogs for posting my video!
Hopefully the word gets out!

and a SPECIAL SHOUT OUT to Remarkable & the: FIVEblackgUys

Monday, November 16, 2009


Friday Night I got a chance to hang out with my boys at the Hotel, and I had so much fun! We got a chance to drink, eat, bug out, dip into the pool and we had an interesting conversation about me in the Hot Tub! Thanks Guys, I needed it!


There was also a party on Saturday I went to, that I got so hungover the next morning! Sunday me and Remarkable went on a Double Date to see 2012... MAN... Im moving to Africa! LOL! What did yah do this weekend?

{note: only a cap full of vodka will get me drunk! LOL!}

Friday, November 13, 2009


UnEmployment Rehab

Sorry I didn't get a chance to write yesterday, but I will do two post today! Maybe I'm not as bad as I think. I have moments where I break down. Two nights ago was that! After some talk, some sleep and some space... I feel like I'm back on the road to feeling better. When u don't have a job and u feel like u lost your self worth... It effects you on the inside. You feel like u don't deserve things like friendship cause you can't be happy go lucky around them, or you don't have the money to hang... It's a lot. When you see yourself slipping until somebody your not, it hurts.

In other news I had an interview today! I was happy about that, but was scared to share it with people because what if I don't get it? Then people may see me as a failure... And I hate to be that vulnerable. But I know I have to. A lot of people are hurting and even more so then me, so I have to just be positive and if the job is meant to be, they will call. I just have to keep moving...

I feel like I'm in rehab when I type on this thing lol.

Will holla at yah later! Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

i slept on the floor

im a bad person.

iDont care what you guys say. I am. I don't pay attention. I have a broken tooth. I am a stinky nasty funk. I can't please. I am broke. I am a procrastinator. but I don't mean to do or be these things...

I can only be a success by the things I do, not by who I think I am.

I wonder how many time I have apologized in my life?
I wonder how many times I will apologize in the future?

bad people sleep on the floor... like a bad dog.
who just shitted inside the house.

go to your corner shawn!

Monday, November 09, 2009

This is not just a VIDEO BLOG!

Ok so a couple of people have been wondering...


LOL... well no. At least that was not the intent. What has been taking up most of my time is looking for a job. Being unemployed has made me feel like I don't have a contribution to this world. I know that is not the case, but that is how I have been feeling. But I stay on my grind and stay busy.

Being part of the FIVEblackgUys has helped me to contain my creative side, and I appreciate that a lot! I really enjoy the two new members... shout out to Marco and Dyvon! I really think we are on the fast track to making a movement. I have a strong passion for video editing now, and I never thought I would! So YEAH ME!

Me and Remarkable are doing very well. He has a whole new set of friends that he is really happy about, so they come over, chill... eat. Whatever! I play happy Housewife for a change, LOL. I have lost contact with some of my friends for various reasons. Sometimes I feel like they don't want to hang out with me because I'm unemployed. Sometimes I feel they don't want to hang out with me because they have to pick me up for us to chill. Sometimes I feel that they are into there own problems to really worry about mine. No matter what it is, I still care about them a lot, and that will never leave. I guess once I have my job, I will have more energy to be "SHAWN" again.

Im going to post again tommorrow, cause I do want to start writing again, it may be shorter then usual, but we will see...

Later guys!

Friday, November 06, 2009



Thursday, November 05, 2009