Friday, April 27, 2007

soundtrack: aint nothing like me

It's very rare that I will fall in love with an entire album, and all the songs really reflect what I am feeling at the time. Brandy's albums (Never Say Never & Full Moon) are the only ones that come to my head right now. Well seems that Joe's newest album has done it! Who Knew? I'm not even a big Joe fan, but when I previewed his album online, the album was amazing!

"...I would die before I would hurt you..."

This song is all about trust in a relationship. All of us are guilty of it. Just think about it? How many times have you found out from somebody that there man with another dude at a party, or they was was talking to a whole bunch of guys off the Internet...and it didn't sit well with you. Then you go up to your man accusing him of this and that, without asking him his side of the story!

Shouldn't we start to put more trust in our men, and don't always jump the gun? Or will we always think that all men are dogs? Know your man.

My Love
"...I have never been the type for holding in, or holding out for sex, but I think I guess I see where its different, but I can't hold it anymore..."

All week, Fuzz and I haven't had sex... mostly on my part. I have been really tired, and been through small depression spells. Now that the weekend is here, as listening to this song, I can't wait to give him my love!

Sometimes it isn't all about doing it every night, and trying to break there back in. It is even more special to wait, have time to think about it, hold off until your both ready to enjoy one another. It makes it so much more special. Sex is like 50% mental as it is physical.

" more lies, just want to get it right this time..."

What I like about this song is that, love really brings the change in people. When will we stop complaining that there aren't any good men in the world, and realize we need to become that GOOD MAN in ourselves? We always talking about how all men cheat, lie, but have at times been guilty of it ourselves. Even if we aren't at that extreme, there is something within ourselves that allows us not to get or keep a man. Before trying find Mr. Right, let us try to be a man, and get it right.


Tuesday, April 24, 2007

picnic at the pier

This weekend was amazing! I think I have to be the luckiest person in the world to have such amazing friends! They are really like family to me. Anytime we all get together, we always have an unforgettable time! Friday, was Game Night at my house, filled with spades, board games, and Truth or Dare. That is all I am going to say about that! Friday, I went to Dance Practice which was a productive & fun. But Sunday... was Picnic at the Pier!

The Village pier is one of the hottest gay spots located in New York City. We took the PATH Train (The train that goes from NJ to NY) to City, and bugged out on the train as usual. Most of the time we play 20 Questions, trying to guess what the other person is thinking. Why did Jay choose "Nappy Headed Hoes", and we actually guessed it!

This is a picture of all of us. Some cute guy took the picture, actually Omar got his number! Can't take him nowhere! Most of you guys know O, Jay, & Fuzz. In the Brown Hat is Calvin, who hangs out with most of us. We have known for a year now, and is one of my best friends. Next to Calvin is Brandon... Fuzzy brough him into the group. I actually known of him from online, but he never wanted to talk to me, lol. Now that's my dawg! He's going to be in a, umm... show, and I'm going to be his backup dancer. It's funny, and I can't wait to do it! Next to Brandon in the back is Shemar (with the hair). He is the other backup dancer. He is soooo Funny, and he helps me out when I don't know my moves.

When we got to the village, we decided to go sunglass shopping, so we could look fly! Calvin got a hot pair, and so did I!

For some reason this reminds me of Sex in the City!
Homos strolling, what do you want from us!

This is us hanging out on the grass. We all just went to Mcdonalds and the Pizzeria, and just ate
on the blanket. We chilled, bugged out, played Scrabble.


Even though it was 80 degrees, it was cold as hell by the water! They was running around trying to snatch blankets... can my friends ever NOT be silly?

That's my baby! Go ahead, get your "awwwww's" in!

Oh yeah, Dave & Dante was there to... love those guys! It was a great weekend, and I can't wait for the summer to come around!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Oh, Xerxes!

"Kneel at my feet, for I am generous God,
if you know what I mean..." - Omar Ramone

Got to love 300! When the Crew and I went to see this movie, as soon as Xerxes came onto the screen, all my homos for friends gasped in amazement! Who was this fierceness on the screen? Then we he talked in that deep tone, baby!.. All of us said, "YESSSS XERXES!" It was so hot! We all pretented to be him when we left the movie, especially Omar! Good Times!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

soundtrack: last night

This song is so HOT! Diddy & Keyshia Cole really did there thing! Since me and Sean have the same name (different spellings) I found it fitting to create myself like his latest album cover, Press Play.

Tight? I know!

DESPERATION... That feeling of security. Gone.
PAIN. HEARTACHE. It's as if your world is coming to and end...
Haven't we all been there before?

What do you do when you have to let go?

I know I have had my fair share of broken hearts, and remember each memory of the last night I was with them. As much as I would love the tell the story of each one, I rather not relive or retell all of them. I do want to tell this one story.

His name was Kevin. Oh Kevin...

He was tall, dark, & handsome. Don't we all love that! He lived in New York, and worked near Wallstreet. I met him at a house party. We hit it off right away. He told me, "Can I be your date for tonight?" I was like, sure... and held me all night, while we danced, as we played games, he even held me tighter so I wouldn't leave. He was so hot! He had an amazing smile, toned body, and a 11 inch dick! Very Funny, mild mannered, and educated. A true gentlemen.

But of course, there was no such thing as a perfect Gentlemen.
He had just moved into an apartment with his roomate, and he didn't have a cell phone or a house phone. The only way to communicate with him was through a pay phone. Even then, I could only talk to him for 10 minutes, or for how long his phone card would last. Man... that was a lot of waiting by the phone. But I loved him, and I did talk to him every night.

We did spend New Years together. We spent a night I will never forget.

That wouldn't be the only night I wouldn't I would forget. We had been dating for 3 months, and on this night, he called me. Much like everytime, I was happy to hear his deep & mellow voice. As we talked, I asked him if I could see him that weekend. He told me that we needed to talk. He explained to me that his roomate was not his roomate at all, but his ex! They got the apartment together, but had broken up and was free to date other people. While he did love me, his ex said that he wanted to try to make them work, if not he was moving to another state forever.

Kevin wanted to try it one more time...
and break my heart for the first.

I bursted in tears as if I had no control over it. How could he do this to me? I have been nothing but good to him, and he leaves me for him? That weekend we met at the World Trade Center, which was close to his Job. We sat there, as I looked into his eyes, and started to cry again. He held me as people in the lobby looked on. I didn't care. I was heartbroken. He told me he still loved me, kissed me one last time, and went on his way.

A couple of months later, the Twin Towers came crumbling down.
To this day, my spirit believes that he died on 9/11 since he worked so close.

I never heard from again.
The night he broke my heart, was the Last Night I ever saw him.

// ShawnQt //

Friday, April 13, 2007

the woman of x-men

I found this video, and it is so cool!
If your an X-Fan, or love he movie & play, Chicago,
you will love this!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Soundtrack: Beautiful Liar

Ok guys, in the next couple of weeks, I'm going to be making some changes to my blog content. I am really going to focus on really letting out some things that is on my mind. While driving home, I was listening to some songs on the radio. As I was listening and thinking... there are a lot of songs out that really could be the SOUNDTRACK to my life! Or to take it further, there are some really cool concepts in today's music that could give us a message about how life is.

I really want to talk about some of these songs and really tell my story from the music, or talk about the impact of the message behind the song. Sounds cool? So a couple times a month, I'm going to do a post called SOUNDTRACK which will feature a song that I want to talk about.

First up...

"Beautiful Liar"
by Beyonce and Shakira.

I could talk all day about how I so badly want to shake my azz like these two, but let me keep my gay thoughts to myself. Like the first line says, "Nobody likes to be played." I feel like I have come across a "Beautiful Liar."

Somebody that I thought was so intelligent, so talented, and so beautiful inside and out, just turned to become a liar... a liar of our friendship. How can somebody you consider a friend, just turn on you, and cut you out of your life JUST LIKE THAT! No conversation, no reasons, just stopped calling, didn't return your phone call, just acted like you didn't exsist.

When you said we was cool, was that a lie? When you said you needed me, was that a lie? When you said you was fine and everything was ok, was that a lie?

Beautiful Liar.

People do wrong, and people makes mistakes... yet you would think that a friendship would last through all of that. You know that if something was bothering me, I would confront you. You know that if someone disrespected you, I would stick up for you. You know that outside of anyone else, at least, you could have talked to me! But you didn't... and that pisses me off.

Why did you have to become a Beautiful Liar?

So I say this to you...

Let's not kill the karma
Let's not start a fight
It's not worth the drama
Let us not become Beautiful Liars

Can we laugh about it
It's not worth our time
We can live beyond this
and not become Beautiful Liars.

If I have done you any wrong, call me, shout at me, curse me out, but don't act like I'm not here. I miss you.

// ShawnQt //

Friday, April 06, 2007

ruff... how you doin?

Even though I am a gay man, that doesn't mean I want a gay dog! TJ is our dog that we got for my sister. For 4 months, he lived at my mother's house. Since they can't have pets in there housing complex, I had to take TJ in. I love dogs! I don't like cleaning up after dogs! He would sleep in the bed, jump on the coach, pee on the floor, shit anywhere, and it was really getting to me. He would tear up my shoes, rip Fuzzy's underwear, and even ate Omar's brush! I was really about to pack him up and send him to Paris!

But he is the cutest thing, and I do love him. I just have to train him more, and he did get better. I limited to one room in the house, but even then, he's not really getting better with the potty training. So the best thing to do is to keep him outside during the day, and inside with me when I get home.

One problem.

I have another dog in the backyard. They don't get along. Romeo Jr. is another dog of mine from years back. I kinda don't like him anymore, but my grandmother takes care of him. So every time I would have TJ go in the back, he would start the barking, over and over and over again! So since I had the day off, I was going to train him to stay outside, without barking.

Now why is my dog barking so much?

Well it seems that TJ barks when he can't get something from the other dog. Guess what it is?

Oh yes...


I can't believe my dog is gay! All my friends said he was, but I wasn't trying to raise him like that... sigh. I want him to be who he is, but I can't beat him because he wants to lick all over some dick! He has to stop barking when he doesn't get any!


My life doesn't get any better then this...
// ShawnQt //

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

great adventures

Bugs:"So Doc, this is your boyfriend?"

Shawn: "Wait! The Sun is in my eyes!"

Daniel: "Don't I look Patriotic?"


Daniel: "If I wait in one more line..."

Robin: "Holy Great Adventure Batman, He's a QT!"
Batman: "He can Bat my Cave ANYDAY!"

American Idol/birthday night

On my Birthday, everyone came over for American Idol Night!
It was really cool to see everybody there. Omar baked a Strawberry Cake which was really good! One of Jay's Friends got me the First Season of Noah's Arc. I only met him twice, and here I am getting a birthday present! My boy X also got me two video games...

Calvin got me LL Cool J's workout book, which I am going to start using either this week, or next. I have already started watching what I eat and I have been doing my sit-ups. I also have dance practice everyweek which helps me out as well. I even ran last Sunday morning in the park.

My Baby got me "The Secret" book which is really cool. I just started reading it today, and it really helps me deal with the craziness that is my job!

"Think Happy Thoughts!"