Thursday, October 25, 2007

tired

I'm here crying with no one to talk to and its pissing me off! I'm tired of bothering my friends over the same shit over and over again! I'm tired of trying to be there for fuzzy when no one is here for me! You dumped me! Fuck you! Why does this have to hurt so much! I never cried this much in my life! I should have never agreed to see you because now my head is all fucked up! I'm tired of being strong, I'm tired of being weak, I'm tired of this hold you have over me, I'm tired no one is holding me! Why the fuck you have to be so damn confusing... why can't you just get it together! Im tired of blaming you for my pain! I'm tired of holding back what I feel to spare your feelings! I jush wish I can let all of this GO! I'm tired... I'm tired.

14 comments:

Darius T. Williams said...

You ain't tired yet. In the words of my grandmother, "when you really get tired, you'll do something about it...and that something involves your piece of mind." Remember, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. AND, the sun shines brightest after a storm. It's a part of life - so hang in there and chuck it up to experience.

Jay said...

Sorry but, fuck him and tell him how you feel and don't spare his feelings. Sometimes being completely honest is the best way for both people to move on. Keep being nice and not saying what you feel, leaves the door open for possibilities that aren't there.

Anonymous said...

I think that this i'm tired is a good starting point so now that you got started, finish it. Like Jay said be honest and say how you feel and anything else that you have left to say.
Erykah Badu said it best:

Bag lady you gone hurt your back
Dragging all them bags like that
I guess nobody ever told you
All you must hold on to
Is you, is you, is you.



4wallz

Ty said...

Shawn, you should already know that you can call your friends anytime. We know that you don't recover from being hurt in a day. If you were a person who ALWAYS complained, it would be a different story. But you always try to be optimistic and this is just a rough time in your life.

I have to ditto what has already been said. Tell him exactly how you feel. Be honest, frank, and thorough with tact.

Barney said...

from pain comes strength
you are on your road to recovery

holding in your thoughts will cause an explosion...release it...
you are only harming yourself.

Mightymouse said...

I don't know you or fuzzy but through ur blogs so I feel weird commenting but I have been in your shoes before. So...I can tell you its a process. There are gonna be horrible days when you feel like ur heart is being ripped out of ur chest. (Incase people don't know heartache is a actual physical pain) then there will be not so bad days, and slowly but surely you will begin to heal. Like your friends say be honest with him. Say how you feel and get it off your chest. And another thing I know for me I tried to be friends with my ex right after out break up. It didn't work for us, not saying it can't work for you, but the distance helps. And don't be afraid to cry to ur friends that's what they r there for. Just make sure your being proactive in the healing process. Allow yourself to go through that pain, anger, frusteration, ect. Then pick yourself up and see what fuzzy has taught you about urself and relationships. Like I said I don't know what's going on but mabey this is something that u and fuzzy have to go through to make u closer. or..well idk :\. I lost my inner Dr. Phil moment that I had at the begenning. Just hang in there man...and goodluck.

Anonymous said...

in total agreement Mighty
stay strong shawn..

simSIMa said...

mightymouse said "pick yourself up and see what fuzzy has taught you about urself and relationships"

and that's exactly what this is, a learning experience. it will make u wiser and stronger for the man who dares to love u back

Quaheem said...

Be glad you can cry about this...

When you reach the point in your life when u CAN'T cry...then you know that the wounds have penetrated to the deepest level...

embrace the darkness...

ponoono said...

if someone done u wrong.. stop seeing them. your time is valuable too.

Dapper D said...

Boi I love you and know that after this experience there will be a MIGHTY Creative and self-loving experience/boom that no other will give to you. God will push so much power and strenght out of you from this experience and you will be able to look back and see how you grew out of this experience.

Lift up your head o ye gates(shawn) and the king of glory shall come in(and bless you greatly)!!!

J said...

I know its hard when you break up with someone because you now have to go back to such an unfamiliar place of solitude and at times loniliness but I sould just suggest you take this time to reflect on your past relationship and come to personal closure and continue to press on through life. You are defintely allowed your moment but don't dwell in that moment for too long.

WhozHe said...

Your words sum up how you're feeling at this moment. That is important. Let those words continue to come forth, like a form of emotional bleeding. There is healing on the other side.

Rodney said...

What I forgot to add to the MySpace message I sent on Saturday. I can leave here (I've been slacking in Blogland).

Forgive him and forgive yourself.

Also I'm sending you my new number and address. You can call and come through whenever you want. I don't wanna hear any more of this ish about no one being there for you. I will come through the monitor and let you have it!