If I wasn't so nice...

...so we go to this fashion show, the usual crew, and I finally meet Fuzzy's old fiance.

Well they wasn't going to get married, but SHE was the girl Fuzzy wanted to be with when he was younger. You know, the childhood sweetheart. They go to the same church together, and are still really good friends even after she found out he was gay. Cool. So we are at the fashion show, and she gets up to walk around during the intermission. Mostly everyone was leaving, so there were more seats open. I sit down to relax since I been standing down for so long. She comes back, and sits in another seat while the show begins. She then starts to ask around where is her white jacket, come to find out, its on my back seat....

So somebody gives her the jacket, and she gives me this mean azz stare, and then brushes off her white jacket in disgust. My AZZ or my BACK wasn't EVEN on her DAMN WHITE JACKET! I wasn't even sitting back all the way... and I didn't think I needed to apologize to her, and who would after that rude azz dramatic she gave me! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME!

I was over it from there.

So we go to Applebees afterwards, and I was quiet the whole time, it was just very uncomfortable. So she goes over to Fuzzy asking him if he could buy her some BBQ wings.... EXCUSE ME, THAT'S MY MAN! I calm down, they are friends, and he can buy her what ever she wants. sigh. I was jealous. So then he tells the waitress to put him and her on one bill. NOW THEY GOT THERE OWN BILL, IS THIS A DATE I DON'T KNOW ABOUT? I calm down. Of course I don't show my jealousy. I'm cool with it. But in my mind, I was thinking... WAIT UNTIL WE GET HOME!

As I order, he asks me, "Do you want me to pay for you?"

HELL YEAH! Then in my mind I'm thinking, NO WAY THIS GIRL IS GOING TO TAKE MY MAN!
My eyes are green!

So the next day, I go over to Fuzzy kissing him on the coach, and I ask him who he is on the phone with. IT WAS HER! I sucked my teeth, got off him and looked out the window. He asked me why I did roll my eyes like that, and I didn't say anything. I didn't want her to know that I didn't like her, out of respect to Fuzz, but then I hear her on the phone saying... I DON'T LIKE HIM!

SHE DON'T LIKE ME! I DON'T LIKE YOU! If I wasn't so nice!

Come to find out later on that night, she NEVER LIKED ME! Even before the white jacket on the chair incident. She told Fuzzy that I looked like a nerd... A NERD! JUST WHEN YOU THINK INSECURITIES LEAVE, I started feeling some kind of way. Back in the day, I was called that by the girls, and it left me depressed for a very long time. As I got older, I refused to let that part of my life get to me again, so it bothered me for a second... just for a second. If I'm a nerd, I'm the finest and sexiest one, with or without my glasses!

I STILL DON'T LIKE HER... but then I had to really get back to who I am. I'm not one to get jealous easily. I can understand why she would be upset if someone sat on her jacket, and even if I did, I still think it was a rude way to react. She is entitled to comment on how I look, because I damn sure have my opinions, but I would never express it. I respect Fuzzy, and if she is an important part of his life, I can make an effort to respect her. We just got off on the wrong foot. Somebody told me I should have put my foot somewhere else, but I'm too nice for that!

:)

// ShawnQt //