I woke up sunday morning, so weak. I couldn't get out of bed. I couldn't wake my mind to fully enjoy the day. It felt like something was taken from me. Then I remembered. The clocks were set back, and I lost an hour of sleep! Sure I sleep longer then usual on sundays, but it still felt like I wasn't ready for the world.
The past couple of days a force has been taking over me. A force that was not allowing me to fully love. A force that was not allowing me to progress forward. A force that was not allowing me to fully see the gifts and blessings I already have.
I was afraid. I was dreaming in fear.
I was reading Acoustic Soul's blog post about FEAR, and realized that I had to get out of this bed I layed myself in. It's funny. I am a very cerebral person. I always have been. I think ahead, I weigh out logical options, and I am always cautious. It has gotten me pretty far in life, and held me back as well.
I remembered the Making the Band episode where Day 26 was stuck in the show's house with no ability to record there second album, and they couldn't go out and make money doing shows. Which left the group at making ZERO MONEY! Same with Danity Kane, with all there group members going there seperate ways, it left 2 of the memebers making ZERO MONEY!
Here they are, famous for making wonderful music... making ZERO MONEY! And I thought I was the only one having financial problems. I realized that it wasn't me. This is not just my problem, but everyone's problem. I saw how one of the members of Day 26, Q, went crazy because he couldn't provide for his family. He was afraid. He allowed fear to destroy his mentality and his relationship with the group. At that moment, he became weak.
That Sunday, I slept most of the day alone. Then when I woke up! I knew that I had to wake up with a new outlook on life. While the universe took away an hour of my sleep, I knew that the next day I would gain another hour to bask in the sunlight!