So its 4am in the morning, Im laying in the bed, a man snuggled up under me, and Im tipsy and can't fall asleep cause my mind is going 95 in a 60 Mile zone!
I usually will just talk to somebody, but yeah, he is knocked out and sick, and all my friends are mostly likely sleep as well.
What is a man to do when he has stuff on his mind? Blog on his sidekick of course! So what is troubling me this morning? I don't know how to put this?
Well I was at this party right? It was the most ghetto party I have ever been to in my life. We went up the hall, and this guy was trying to calm down his friend from fighting. We get up stairs to like 50 and some odd black gay men, women, inbetween, thugs & straights all drinking and smoking all through the sticky floor apartment!
Im not a smoker, so that was just a no go for me, and the vibe was just not right for me, especially since we just came from a really nice birthday party at a nice house a couple of hours ago.
Im here with my guy, holding hands against the wall, and this queeny guy comes up to him and ask MY dude if he will go in the room with him! WHAT! Is he serious??? He then tells the guy (which he knows but not personally, just seen him around) that I was with him, the guy shakes me hand and says that we look cute together... great, right after u want my man, whatever!
I have never had to deal with this before, so this is all new to me. What's bad on my part, was I was a little mad at my dude because the other guy was disrespectful. I know that's not fair, but Iike I said, the vibe of that party just wasn't right for me.
I know that in life, ur man is going to get hit on, either if ya are together or apart, and its something u just have to deal with, but how? Is this an insecurity on my part? He goes above and beyond letting me know that I AM THE ONE FOR HIM, and gives me reassurance, but my mind sometimes does what it wants to think, outside of what's logical!
I never ever been a jealous person, and don't want to start. Is there a solution to this? How do u guys deal with this on both ends?