Why haven't I written in my blog in awhile?
I know why.
I don't want people to think I am a failure. This has always been my fear... I guess fear itself. I have been unemployed for a month now. Not only do I have to take care of myself, but my loved one as well. I hate going to my friends because either they going through the same thing I'm going through, or I'm ashamed because I feel like because I'm unemployed I will be looked down upon.
So I'm listening to Trey Songz and Drake song "Successful." Talk about a song that really hitting me hard. Reminds me of Trey's first song "Gotta Make It." I feel like I have enough talent and enough drive to really do my passion... but I have to prove it.
Because the economy is so bad, I have to be even more creative then those that trying to get the same position I'm going for. It's hard. It is starting to effect everything, my relationship, family & friends... and I'm not the type of person to really sulk and be pissed at situations.
What I'm learning now is to take "RISK." I have always been the kind of person to play it safe, but it can only get you to so many places. I need to create my own LEAP OF FAITH... and even if I fall a couple of times, there has to be one time that somebody will catch me!
Heavenly father, please sustain my spirit as I search for new and meaningful work. You have blessed me with a healthy body and a keen mind for which I am grateful. I ask that you open my path as I seek employment that will allow me to support my family and myself while serving others and your divine purpose. In gratitude and grace, Amen.