Everyday I feel like I go back and forth into duality. From Clark Kent to Superman. From Beyonce to Sasha Fierce, LOL... in my mind, my duality is dueling it out! My life can be so boring, yet so interesting, How is that possible! At times I sit in the house watching 90210 cutting my toe nails, to going out to NYC and people recognizing me from my blog or videos. It's crazy!
People have stopped commenting on my blog, yet I have more subscribers and more people coming here. What's up with that! LOL! I think people see me more as "entertainment" vs someone they can vibe with on a personal level. Either way, I'm still me, and I need this blog! I need a place in the world where I can feel free to express anything that is going on in my head! I'm very much still Shawn without the QT. Just Shawn.
I feel blessed to be where I am. The economy is picking up. I have some great freelance jobs coming in, thanks to me advertising on my blog! If you still need design, HIT ME UP! LOL. I still am looking for another full time job and I hope that happens, cause a brother needs stability! My relationship is great, we just had an anniversary a couple of days ago. Living with him has overall been a great experience. Of course you have your things here and there, but nothing a good conversation won't fix. I am back in the gym, and my chest is popping! LOL. I have slimmed down some, and now just working on toning everything back up. I went to play tennis with my boy Calvin the other day... man! Talk about sweat! I suck by the way! But I do want to try again.
I need to allow myself to be open to new experiences and new people. I need some new energy in my life. I need something exciting, if that makes sense. I think the past couple of days I have allowed people to spill there negativity on me. It's not a good look. The summer time usually the best time for excitement, so I'm looking forward to it. I can't wait until my new phone comes in... I will be able to keep in contact with people more often and document stuff better. That's the thing I love about blogs... it helps you really see how great a life you have! Even the boring moments has its potential, LOL.
Do you guys feel that you have a
Duality in your life?