Friday, November 07, 2008

my // truth:: {s}



1. truth: never have I feared loved so much in my life. it saddens me that it will never be the same again. not bitter. more cautious. I hope I don't turn into a "heart-breaking boy."

2. truth: I don't hate you anymore. I forgive you. I love you. yet even still, you continue to break my heart every single time you don't become the person your suppose to be. your choices have to be better then you. you have god. use "him".

3. truth: yes, I am going through post election syndrome. so much energy put forth to make him our president, and now I have nothing to have passion for. what is next? why can't I be creative? I need inspiration now more then ever.

4. truth: BGC sucks. everyone knows it. why do we continue to use it. me included. its not all bad. I met a great person from there. I guess when it doesn't serve me anymore, it will cease to exist. that's why I'm going to facebook.

5. truth: I hate cheaters. I hate seeing people cheat. yet, I understand why people cheat. worst yet, I know I have the ability to cheat as well. that is the part of myself I hate. I don't want to be a cheater. period.

6. truth: age is just a number. maturity isn't. I respect every one's stage in there life, but at what point, do you realize who you really are and what you want out of life. if anyone can give me a number, I will store that in my phone.

7. truth: if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it. don't be mad when you see that he wants it // damaged... damaged, I thought that I should let you  know. now how you going to to fix it, fix it, fix it...  why do I cry when I hear these two fast songs?

8. truth: me not having a mustache and beard has made me so insecure. I want it back so badly. when I tell you I have no desire to EVER be a girl again, I mean it. yet I so love Olivia. I love being a man with a dick in between my legs. and its quite big to. I just say that for shock value, but it is true.

9. truth: I say I want friends, but I really don't. I have so many people I'm already cool with, why not spend the time getting to know them first? why don't I just build up the true friendships I already have? life isn't myspace, why do we treat it as such?

10. truth: I need time to breath. be still. quiet all of my surroundings. I feel GOD whispering in my ear, but I can't hear. once I start telling all my truths, then GOD will start telling me GOD's.


Inspired by JW. I inspire you to do the same on your blog or in your personal diary.

16 comments:

Joey Bahamas said...

That was pretty! The truth is such a powerful thing...combined with love, it's unstoppable. Put it on the table, and work from the hand you've got...Luv!!

Joey B.

PS...how big? LOL

Darius T. Williams said...

I will do it. I'm going to think about it this weekend and make it happen. Great idea Shawn!

MR said...

"I have nothing to have passion for. what is next?"
For Obama to be sucessful, we have to be the change we need. He can't do it alone. Isn't there something, an issue you find really important? A cause you believe in? What about getting back to your own art/video productions? Something you always wanted to learn? Take small steps. It may be researching the thing you care about. it may be talking about it with friends and letting it be known what you are passionate for. Change can not start and stop with him.
Finally, what you want and who you are today will not be what you want or who you are tomorrow. So there is no number where you will know who you are and what you want. As we change the world, the world changes us. Hopefully for the better, but sometimes for the worse.
But the personal growth is also part of the change that needs to happen too. Always learning, always improving. Octavia Butler once wrote in one of her books that "God is Change". I have come to believe her.

jerzey_reality said...

yeah I think imma do this on my blog...uve got one up on me though...u know how I feel bout relationships so I jus don't get y people cheat but thas a topic for a later discussion lol

good post..ill talk to u later about other stuff u mentioned

deonte' k said...

Hmmm I might consider this too myself. :)

fuzzy said...

Wondering if I should say something! I'll stay quiet on this one...

kennyking78 said...

What a great post Shawn. I love the way that some of your truths were right on the surface and some of them were a bit deeper. Now that you had admitted these truths it has to be a freeing experience. Good luck with dealing with them.

I will take your charge and do the same thing on mine, but it probably won't be for another month or so.

Barney said...

Hmm... Im not sure if people can always handle the truth.

Keisha Kornbread said...

Chile...I'll see.

Joop said...

This was a good post. Alot of them truths I can attest to of having thought of myself, especially like BGC.

RocaFella07 said...

Cool post.

What is it that usually sparks you to be creative?

;-)

Trent Jackson said...

Thank you for reminding what blogging is all about...and bringing it back!! LOL.

But it's funny that we're all going through a detox at the same time...

it's time to get back to self.
miss ya much!

ponoono said...

BGC may or may not suck.. but the truth is that a lot of people who have profiles on it will.. ahahahhahahhahahah !

Promiscuous X said...

Good post and I think ima do my own post

deonte' k said...

Great pics man.... u need to show me some of ur workout moves lol... ;)

Nobody not really... said...

damn.