Ok, so the only reason why I'm doing this blog post is to use "the secret" (the law of attraction) and to get this off my chest. Only a few people know, but by the end of September, the company that I have been working for the past 5 years will be no more.
Due to the economy, the design company has to close its doors. I feel a couple of ways about it. I always knew the company was in trouble, so this wasn't a surprise to me. I have talked about leaving my job for the longest, so I guess I attracted this to happen. So in one aspect, I'm content with moving on!
What I have some uneasiness with is my ability to continue paying my bills. The blessing is that Im not in debt! So what ever bills I have are just on going house bills. Since my grandmother owns the house I live in, rent is not expensive. I have some money saved up for emergencies. And I do have the ability to collect unemployment. I'm not deep in the water!
My boss still wants to work with me as a partner. We have two ways of handling this. We have
decided to sell ourselves to another design company (Salesman & Design) and hopefully work out a deal that way. We do have a deal on the table, and but the money is not fully right. We will see. Our other option is to work from our houses. I can do freelance, and he can get the clients. Once or twice a week get together, and make everything happen. Everything is so digital right now, that it shouldn't be a problem. Even then I can still do design on the side.
Overall I need a salary job with benefits, and I have sent out some resumes, and Im sure everything will work out. To say I'm nervous is an understatement. But for me to move to the next phase of my life, there is going to have to be some discomfort, so I am welcoming it. I talked to my mother and she said, "If you ever need money for food, then you know we got you. You will never go hungry." I remember when some of my friends were out of work for months at a time, and they made it, so Im going to do the same!
I not stressing though. For me the stress will only bring forth more stress. Weird how I can handle this better then my past relationship. In any case, hopefully when all aspects of my life are together, then I will get back to being "me" again.