Monday, April 14, 2008


ponoono said...

why do you search the whole world, when the whole world is you?

The question in implies that I am "searching" when indeed, I am not. It has been years since I have stopped "searching for me" and "realizing who I am."

I remember a day when being a nerd, with whack clothes, no social life, and less stellar grades bothered me to no end. I remember a day when I thought I couldn't handle being an adult, with bills and responsibility, and the admittance of failure was the worst feeling in the world. I remember a day when I felt like I had to live up to a lover's standards of what I should be, my virginity was more hated then celebrated, and that I was cursed to never find someone to love me for me. I remember a day when I prayed to GOD to "take this away from me" and "he " never did, while my mother gave me faces of disgust, and no one was ever there for me.

I searched for a way to get out of all of that, and it never worked. It those insecurities came tumbling down like a brick wall when I realized that I am who I am, and I have the power to change it all by changing my thinking. At that point I knew I could change "my world" and then my happiness came. Sometimes I forget I have that power, but I'm glad I have Jesus, my greatest reminder.

Sean Stone said...

Where do you see yourself a year from now?

Ok let me close my eyes and "envision" myself forward.  It's pretty hazy, but I do see myself at a new working facility. I see, a lot of artwork. I see my apartment looking totally different. I see a dog! Yeah! I see a car. That will come in handy. I also see some pain. Sadness, yet still joy. And I see... darn. I lost it.

How are you going to celebrate your special day?  

My Birthday was celebrated with a visit from Fuzzy &  X on my birthday. I spent the day with Fuzzy and Jay at the mall. Went to Friday's and then of course the stripper show that night. Saturday Morning was my Breakfast Brunch, and later that night X through a party at my house.

Barney said...

you have so much living left to do..what are you hoping to accomplish by the age of 35? 

I could hardly see myself in a year from now, and now u want me to project myself forward 8 years! Well part of my plan is to achieve all my current dreams by the age of 30, with no regrets. Then start coming up with some new ones. I want to be dead on in my career, no bullshit. Being creative and having some kind of executive responsibilities will be important. Boyfriend, Apartment, Friends, Car and Dog will be my foundation.

Kensilo said...

Question: In the course of your dating, do you feel you have meet the LOVE of your life or is the LOVE of your life still out there waiting to capture you?

I always believed that you can have more then one "LOVE OF YOUR LIFE" or "SOUL MATE" We all live and love at different stages of our lives, and I am very happy to have one now. Everyone that I have dated, has not been my soul mate! 

Bullet Proof Soul said...

What are three things about Obama that you don't like? You have to name three.


1) I don't like that he didn't focus more on getting the New Jersey Vote.

2) I didn't like that he took so long to speak to the gay media.

3) I don't like that he is not a good bowler, but I'm nick picking now.

Darius T. Williams said...

So, you've been in a pretty long relationship w/a guy I absolutely adore. I've admired your relationship and how you've handled the victories and the valleys. What advice can you give to all of us who aspire to join w/another guy for a great partnership?  

Thanks Darius.

I have put up a post on 5 Tips to keep a man for a year, which worked for us. Yet after me and Fuzzy broke up and got back together, we realized two things. We have to be REAL HONEST with each other. The "No Sugar" Rule is our way to be honest an not worry about hurting each others feelings. 

As long as you have love, have fun, and try to meet each others needs, it can work. 

fuzzy said...

i have a mighty question! What the HELL is so special about Barack Obama that you goo goo gaa gaa over him? AND Can we get a threesome? :-)

He is intelligent, powerful & has charisma! When he talks, he makes me feel like I want to be a better person! That is so fucking sexy! Besides, he looks very similar to some boyfriend that I love. 

We already discussed this, NO THREESOMES, LOL.

ww4p ( said...

If I take you from behind, push myself into your mind, when you least expect it... would you try to reject it? 

Oh my! With words like that, probably not! LOL.

Jay said...

Did you try to hook me up with Reggie because you wanted to get with Lamar? 

LOL, No. You taken me back like 8 years ago! To speed everybody up...

(Jay, if any of this story is incorrect, let me know)

Lamar is this guy that I met on Blackplanet. He was mad cool. We would talk on the phone for hours. While he was from Jersey, he went to school out of state. So every other weekend, he would come up to see me. Well not just me. He also came up to see his boyfriend to.

Young and Naive, I became his "mistress" or "mister" for a couple of months. Our connection became very intense, and he swore he would break up with his boyfriend for me, but when it happened, he decided that I wasn't what he was looking for. It hurt, but he was very adamant about us remaining friends.

So as friends, we would hang out, and I met Jermaine and Ricky. What was interesting though was that Lamar was seeing Jermaine and Ricky at the same time! Yet at first neither one of them knew! I can remember being a little jealous, but whatever. Then in a total twist of events Jermaine and Ricky ended up making out in my Kitchen! Too Much, I know! We were young!

Reggie is this guy that liked me in High School who ended up drinking my babies behind the stage. I was so grossed out, that I ran out of the school all the way home! Anyway... It was never my intent to put Reggie on to Jermaine so I can't get Lamar, I believe by that time I was over him.

BuddahDesmond said...

 What do you hope to accomplish over the course of the next year?

Off the top of my head:

1) Go on a real vacation with Fuzzy.

2) Complete my vide(o) experience.

3) Work on becoming more healthy.

4) Be the parent to a beautiful baby dog!

5) Own a Wii!

Promiscuous X said...

Say one day you start your own graphic design company and it really takes off and you wind up doing campaign ads for Borack Obama one of your biggest clients/male fanatsies... If you were rich would you still be my friend or would you look down on me and find a new social group to chill with....? Just remember fame isn't everything...I would like an honest answer too sir.

I think it would make total sense that I WOULD have a NEW Circle of Friends to hang out with. LOL. I mean Obama has some powerful people in his ranks! Yet I have never been one to hang out with the "political' crowd all the time. That does not mean that I would leave any of my friends now. Truth be told, I think you guys would leave me before I leave you. LOL.

Anonymous said...

Do you think it is more important to be liked or be real? 

To keep it real, to be liked.

Anonymous said...

Do you currently own a car?

That's a hard question to answer. Yes, and No. No further comment on that.

Anonymous said...

Do you want 28 questions to boost your number of people responding to your post? 

Looks like Anonymous is doing the job for me!

Anonymous said...

Do you have any unattractive friends?

I don't know why you guys think you can put me in a corner to make me hurt somebody's feelings. So instead of singling anyone out, I will bunch all you ugly homos together! Each and everyone of my friends have a "unattractive" trait about them that I don't like. But I still love you ugly homos all the same!

Anonymous said...

Who is your sexiest friend?

I think everyone has sex appeal. Jay has this thing he does to my neck that turns me on! X likes to lick his lips a lot. Reggie got booty for days. Ty has a sexy bald head. Dee has a juicy booty to. Dapper D has a nice smile. Fuzzy's body is on point. And you can't forget about Mr. Brown!

Anonymous said...

Who is your cutiest friend?

I think that person that has the best attribute to be "cute" would probably be Jay, only because he is our cute lil teddy bear, well was our teddy bear until he lost all that weight... never mind I take it back!

Anonymous said...

Which one of your friends do you think you will always be friends with? (you can only choose one)  

There is most def MORE THEN ONE,  and yes X this is an unfair question, but since you want to put me in a corner again, I will pick Omar by default since he is my best friend, duh!

Anonymous said...

If you didn't have to worry about any consequences for your actions for an entire day, what would you do? 

I would probably go to a sex party.

Anonymous said...

Does your question count toward the 15 more needed? 

Sure does... I guess your not done huh?

Anonymous said...

If you found out your mother was a lesbian how would you feel?    

I would be shocked! It would be weird for me at first, but would embrace it. Our relationship is not based off of who we are sleeping with.

Anonymous said...

What is your favorite color?


Anonymous said...

If TLC came out with a new album, with a new member, would you love them as much as you did? 

Nope, the chemistry is with the original three. I would still support them. They would never do it though. Chilli and T-Boz have an album coming out, and Blaque (Left Eye's Group) will be coming out with a reality series with T-boz as there new mentor.

Anonymous said...

Which one of your friends would sit down and write 13 anonymous questions?  

I think it was Jay because when I asked him he didn't tell me the truth and he didn't lie to me either!

mr said...

What exactly goes on at all these parties you guys are having? Sounds more like orgies to me...

Well, ummm, errr, ok... there are sexual antics that do go down at my "past" parties. To protect the innocent, I am just going to keep my mouth shut. Now that I think about it, has anyone of you guys seen the "LIST" you know, the one with the circle with our names around it?

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

My health. A body that is a better reflection of who I want to be.

If you could have plastic surgery and change any body part you would like, what would you do?

I don't think I would get plastic surgery. I wouldn't mind cosmetic dental surgery. Nothing like having a hollywood smile!

What is your biggest regret?

Not taken better care of my car.

Mash said...

Happy belated! You and your man-wife are quite open about your sexuality top, he bottom as you've hinted a couple of times! What sort of reactions do you get from close acquaintances who know about this? Do they tend to box y'all into these roles, does who-gets-dicked transcend the Seally Posturepedic in terms of discourse??? Enjoy the blog, particularly the random epiphanies that you blog about from time to time. Love from South Africa.  

I think that me and Fuzzy's sexual roles do not dictate our roles in our relationship. I don't think I wear the "pants" in the relationship. At times he may seem like he does because he is taller then me, usually drives me around, and thinks he knows more then me. Then again I am older, he is over  my house most of the time, and I am usually the wiser one. But that is up for debate. 

Gary T. P. said...

Its Friday May 2015...What are you doing today? 

You guys are killing me with all these "look into the future" questions! I would be 35 by this time... how about living. lol.

RocaFella07 said...

Jayonce Got married a week ago...Is "Shuzzy" next??

If Fuzzy gets a banging job with health insurance, Hell yeah! But then again, I don't know he is always trying to put a pillow over my head and kill me ever other day! I keep telling him I don't have any inheritance money... at least not yet!

What made you want to start performing on video??

My first video I did in my early twenties. This was way before Youtube! I used to do video diaries and everything. Maybe one day I will put one of those old videos up. I always loved lip synching pretending I was a star! I always wanted to dance, so I would just do it in the privacy of my home. So when youtube came out, I was like, why not! Then I found a love for video editing, so I usually do the videos just so I can see what I can do on that level! Plus I like the feedback feedback, ohhhh!

Anonymous said...

Why do you get upset so easily?

I get upset easily because I spend a lot of time and energy listening and compromising for others, and when people make light of a situation and/or don't take me seriously, it bothers me.

Why are you easily disappointed?

Which also the reason why I get disappointed.

How's the Job thing going? 

The company is doing good on the creative side, and not the financial side. We are working on creating a merger deal, but it is all based on the right time. If the merger doesn't fall through, then I will have to find another job.

Ailed LittleKnight said...

If Fuzzy a good Boyfriend?  

That is funny! Overall YES! I think that I was spoiled. I was spoiled in a relationship where affection, love, and compromise was given easily to me. With me being Fuzzy's first "real" relationship (and you can't correct me if I am wrong) he didn't know how to do certain things... but most of the all he does now. I don't appreciate him like I should though.

kennyking78 said...

Happy Belated! I still have that birthday card I would like to send you. I am very inspired by your creativity.

What is your greatest creative accomplishment?

Thanks Kenny, send me an email and I can give you my address. Greatest Creative Accomplishment? Hmmmm I think I would have to say my blog.

What do you look for most in a friend? 

Somebody that has the same interest as me, I can talk to easily, that can make me laugh when I am down, and be able to get along with most of my other friends.

Promiscuous X said...

Bitch you want 28 question...I'll give you 28..I got 2 more for you.
Who was the 19th president?

Rutherford B, Hayes Bitch!

How many times you ever sucked fuzzys dick in one day? 

12, bitch! Question, how many times u going to suck my dick! Fucking Rushing me, u happy! :)

Thanks for sending in the questions! I will format this post better later. If you want to discuss any of my answers to the questions, leave a comment!


Darius T. Williams said...

Great questions...but you know Jay is still cute. I remember looking at him years ago saying, hmmmm...

Anonymous said...

Great questions, great answers and great blogg... I like how your mind works Shawnqt.
I love reading you all.

Stay cool.

Ur overseas fan :)

Promiscuous X said...

To the sucking dick part lol (EWWWWLLLL thats incest. lol we like family) but yeah you know you looked up that answer for the 19th president lol. I would never leave my friends....they are all I know...and no one can replace them so I myself wouldnt develope a new social circle ..but I would add to it along the way punk....Thanks for finally fuckn posting....took you long enough....I'll call you later on about the rest of the answers lol

Jersey Brotha said... don't find me attractive Shawn? I think I'ma cry in a corner (with somebody who does find me attractive lol).

ShawnQt said...

Greg, Your very Handsome, but.. You don't even HAVE sex. LOL.

Omar Ramon said...

lol oh shawn...why 12? why is that ok? THAT"S NOT OK!!! Y'all need to get a grip. (does this qualify as hating?)

Bullet Proof Soul said...

LOL!! Wow, I enjoyed the answers. I'm glad you got what you wanted and enjoyed it. Your answers just had me CTFU!!