Monday, November 19, 2007

balancing act / full circle


{Shawn & The Dream Team at Derrick L. Briggs Book Club event: Night with Jonathon Plummer}


As I stood by the Bar, I watched as my friends mixed and mingled, talking amongst each other. Seemed like everyone has having a good time. It was very intimate at the Chocolate Bar. Small tables. Lite candles. The spotlight was on the stage, as we waited for Jonathan Plummer to arrive. I looked at Tyson as he walked around helping out his new beau with his event. Never would I have thought that one of my friends would be dating Mr. Briggs. I'm happy for him, actually at the moment, I was feeling a sense of envy. As I look at them, giving small kisses or hugs from time to time...

I missed having a boyfriend.


{Me Trent Jackson & Jay first meeting at the event at the Chocolate Bar in NYC}

As I was talking to Tyson at the bar, I get a text message on my sidekick.

"Look at that sexy dude at the bar?"

I don't care about no damn dude right now! I look back and hardly see anyone attractive behind me. I replied, "I don't see anyone?" with an annoyed tone.

"That's because it's you."

Ok, I felt stupid, but smiled. I look over to the guy sitting at the table as the flame from the candle flickers on his soft brown face. Damn he looks so good! I text him back and tell him I feel lonely and in need of a little romance. He then texts me and asks me to sit down next to him. I look to Tyson and say, "he's flirting with me!"

"Well then flirt back!" Tyson yells!

Ok, ok, let me go over there. Why was I nervous? I have no reason to be, I mean I wanted this right? So I sit down next to him, and smile.

Then he says in a very deep voice, "What's going on sexy?"

Compliments always get me going. He asks me what I was doing here. Told him I was here with friends. I see we was playing this kind of game... He smiles and says I have beautiful eyes. I smile back. We continue to talk and exchange compliments & pleasantries. As he was talking, I look down to his lips. I remember kissing lips like his, but no need to get down about it now. This is a whole new experience. I wanted to taste it so bad. I think he had the same thing on his mind. We lean in slowly. He wanted it just as bad as I did. Then our lips touch, in such a caress that my entire body felt like it was floating. We kissed deeper, back and forth, the flow was very much like a BALANCING ACT, but we weren't playing. We was getting in. Everyone in the club stood still as I engulfed in that moment.


{Omar Ramone, Me, Trent Jackson, & Divo at the Full Circle Book Release Event in NYC}

As I pulled back, I looked into his eyes, and we both smiled. He felt it to. He went to go get us some cheesecake as we fed it to each other. He licked it off his lips, wishing that I had done the same. Later on that night, Jonathan Plummer finally showed, and it was starting to become a wonderful evening. Derrick L. Briggs really knows how to create an event that would touch other peoples lives, and I'm glad he did that tonight. As everything was wrapping up, I left my sexy guy at the table to meet and greet other people. I finally saw Trent Jackson, who is a fellow blogger and friend. He was up in NYC to release his new book, which I went to in support. Not only does he help me, but the community as well. I got to meet some other cool people, exchanging hugs and just enjoying the atmosphere. As I was walking around a photographer wanted to take a picture with me and and the sexy guy at the table...

Why was I nervous?

We wasn't really together?

Should I even do it?

What would people say?

How would I feel?

Then at that moment, it all came FULL CIRCLE for me.
I will not be ashamed of my feelings OR my actions.
The camera flashed...





















... and captured one of my favorite pictures of us to date.

24 comments:

ponoono said...

Great picture. Now that i see you two standing side by side.. i realize that Fuzzy can see any lint stuck to the top of your head real easy. you two are a perfect match!

Rahshek said...

Aww...I was brought to tears.

bLaQ~n~MiLD said...

ROTF! Imma fight you cause you had me going for a minute! Wait til I see you Shawn! LMAO!

~Damnit!

Quarter Life Crisis of a Black Woman said...

I loved the post!

RocaFella07 said...

Why did I get a lil' jealous!?!?! LMAO!!

;-)

Tyson said...

Love the post. Love the pictures. I am glad that the evening brought you two closer. I love seeing you together. Keep your heads up. There will be obstacles that fall into your path. You must continue your journey together. There will be haters. There will be those who say, "It won't work!" or "It can't work!" Push on! Sometime you must focus on your relationship to ensure its success. Do that! I pray that you end up together and happy. The last picture is also my favorite one of you both "to date"
God bless and Happy Holidays!

Unconquerable Soul said...

That was juicy!

Anonymous said...

As the photographer, I say thank you. I was surprised, but very happy to see you two together. When the going gets rough, look at the picture and think about what you have together.
Best Wishes- MR

Cash S. said...

Wow, that was a really hot post!

Darius T. Williams said...

Oh - look at DIVO>!>! I miss those days. I'm gonna have to start a coalition of Chicago bloggers. I really am. That's it...I'm doing it!

Darius T. Williams said...

Oh Yea - by the way, that was a hot post.

Rodney said...

WHat a marvelous weekend and the images are definitely great.

I hear ya... I missed being partnered too, but I'm giving up and getting cats.

ThisMightBeMe said...

wow....cute...love this post.

Anonymous said...

Awww..what a cute post. And yayyy!!!! I'm so happy 4 uall. I swear u 2 are like my male on male will and jada...lol
Anyway cute post.

Anonymous said...

Damn,that pic is off tha chain...
so did you...did he....what happened?Its like the train scene
in Love Jones.....please update us
manchild

mountii said...

i wish i had a boy toy

mountii said...

i meant friend...silly me

mountii said...

i would him up from the head down to the flo' up...every inch of him would be wet

mountii said...

...and i ain't just talkin' his penis,hello

Playboy Adonis said...

Shawn, you never mentioned any of this to me...I had to catch it on your blog...wtf...so, you'll have to fill in some more details for me. Also...I saw that pic of yours (think...you know the one further down your page)...I sent...yours?...wtf...that's cool.

Quaheem said...

Love is the persistence of admiration...

Jersey Brotha said...

That was very ingenious of you Shawn! And cute pic!

Kensilo said...

I was expecting someone new.. But I am glad that it was FUZZY!!!

And I also thought how can someone new send you a text when you have not meet them yet. Good one!

Ladynay said...

Okay, you got me!