YOU KNOW WHAT...

FUCK YOU MUTHAFUCKERS!!!!!

I'M A CRANKY PAINFUL BITCH RIGHT NOW!
MY STUPID AZZ WANTED TO WORK OUT ON MONDAY...

...AND MY TALL AZZ FRIEND,
WITH MUSCLES COMING OUT OF HIS EARS,
WANTED TO PUT ME AND OMAR
THROUGH FUCKING IRAQIAN BOOT CAMP!

THIS AIN'T WAR, SLOW YOUR ROLE BITCH!

NOW TWO DAYS LATER I GOT SLEEPLESS NIGHTS
BECAUSE FUCKING SOURING PAINS OF AGONY
ARE RUNNING THROUGH EVER MUSCLE IN MY ARMS!

FUCK THIS!
YA CAN KISS MY AZZ!
THIS SHIT IS FOR THE MONKEYS!

CAN'T EVEN DRIVE RIGHT,
CAUSE MY ARMS CAN'T EVEN TURN THE FUCKING WHELL,
WHAT KIND OF BULLSHIT IS THAT?

I CAN'T EVEN SPELL WHEEL!
ALL THIS DAMN PAIN!

AND NO I'M NOT WORKING OUT ON THURSDAY!
YOU CAN KISS MY AZZ TWICE,
SPIN ME AROUND THREE TIMES,
AND SUCK MY DICK!

{sigh, i'll be in the gym next monday}

PUNK AZZ BITCHES... WHERE'S MY P&J SANDWHICH!

Today is Monday

Picture It? BLOGGER : The Movie!
Think about it... our lives are pretty interesting for a movie! Every day I go to bloglines.com, which is a website where you can add all your favorite blogs, and find out who has updated instantly! Myself, Fuzzy, and Ty use it, and it is very helpful! I read over 20 blogs, and I still need to add more. I don't always comment because sometimes I'm at work, and they call me to do something else, but I do TRY!

Today I found out that my ex updated his blog. Seems that he has a new boyfriend, and he is really happy with his results from the gym. Even had some new photos up. I'm happy for him! I miss him a little. Just because you end a relationship doesn't mean you stop caring for someone, especially if you spent 2 years of your life with him. I am overly happy with Fuzzy, but it would be nice to talk to him and see what he is up to as friends. Last time I saw him, we were both in a restaurant on different sides. He was with his friends, and I was with mine. It was very awkward for me. I really didn't want to ignore him, but I didn't know how to react when I saw him, or how he would react to me. I don't like that uncomfortable feeling. In any case, maybe I will shoot him an e-mail if he hasn't read my blog already.

I always love Clay's Blog, because he has interesting topics to have a debate about. Can Obama and Hillary take the president's spot? My comment was, even if America is not ready for a black man and a white woman, then at least they will pave the way for a Black Woman, aka OPRAH!

OPRAH FOR PRESIDENT! LOL.

Then I was reading Keith Boykin & Darian's blog about the whole cancellation o Noah's Arc. To me, that's bullshit. I love that show, and what is going to happen to my Noah's Arc night! I already have a AMERICAN IDOL NIGHT... and even a small HEROES Night... but in the summer, we look forward to Noah and the crew! So now they are going to pick up the show and make it a movie... great, I think? NEWARK IS NOT GOING TO PLAY THAT MOVIE! I have to go to New York to see it, and what about everyone else? sigh. I will give the actors more money, there will be a bigger budget for a bigger story... but I don't know about this. Will sending letters or marching work? I mean this is all about dollar and cents at the end of the day. I will go out and buy the 2nd season on DVD, but then again I wouldn't mind a box set of both seasons. I have to think harder on the subject to see where I stand.

I so wish I could listen to Trent Jackson's Radio Show at work... when I get home, I have so much to do I forget to tune in, but when no one is in the office, I do crank it up. I love you T, always know that! Me and T would talk about what was going on Blogopia, and it would be so funny! That's why we need a movie!

This post is inspired by Ladynay. I like how she just talks random about what is going on in her daily life, so I was like, why not! Ladynay is the ONLY one I know that updates everyday on time! She should get an award for that!

I'm happy Qua Qua is doing better after his breakup. Breakups sucks. Why can't people just act right! Why can't we act right?

It can be hard when two of your friends that you both admire can't stand each other! It happened once before, but now they are cool. Now it is happening to two of Fuzzy's friends that we hang out with. I hate taking sides. I don't like when people do stupid shit as well. Then again it isn't my biz to get into it, but kinda hard when it effects you indirectly. sigh.

So I have a new computer! LOL
After I said all that in my last post, I got it anyway. Let me explain. Sunday morning I went to Barnes and Nobles to catch up on some reading. I tell you, that is the best library, and you can eat there to! So after I caught up on some comic books, I was reading a book about Creative Visualization. It was all about seeing your dreams and making them come true. So I closed my eyes, and I pictured myself with a new computer. I knew that one day I would have it. So I left the store, confident, but not in a rush. To make a long story short, I saw a great price for what I was looking for in BESTBUY, and I bought it! I'm pretty happy with my choice, but kinda went over $150 bucks (They get you with Antispyware and Security Stuff). So...

I'm going to be selling off some of my action figures, DVDS, computer programs, and more on my blog, craigs list, and ebay. My goal is to reach $200 bucks that will go towards the cost of my new computer. I will also have autograph photos of my ass up for bid as well! :)

I pick up the computer on Thursday, so overall I'm happy. I can finally design and play Sims2 without any problems!

Looks like Peanut Butter & Jelly sandwiches all this week!

favorite logos

I just wanted to show you guys some of my favorite logos I have designed at my job:



WHAT YOU THINK?

venting

Sometimes I hate being an adult!

You think that once you get older, and get a job, you can do anything! Yeah Right! I had a friend of mine do my taxes last night, and I am NOOOOOO where getting as much money as I did last year, so that puts a dent into me buying a new computer. Damn Bush! What you going to do? I can't make the IRS give me more money! So I was like, well I can use half the money to get the new computer, and half of my savings to get the rest... but I wanted to get it now! So I called up, ordered the computer, and it seems like my credit is not up to par with me getting monthly payments. (Note: Never let your parents open up accounts in your name!) I don't want to pay the money all upfront! I don't like to make haste decisions when it comes to money. You never know what might happen! My car could break down! Someone might need to borrow money. I might have to pay an extra bill! So I told them to hold it, until I was ready to order.

sigh. I love that computer...

But maybe it is for the best. So I had to "man up" and think logical.

First I have to count my blessings. I have a resonable amount of rent, I have a two bedroom apartment, I have cable, internet, & a house phone, my student loan bills are not that high, I have a cell phone with unlimited text messages, I always have something to eat, I have a 4runner that I got for free, I can actually afford my car insurance, gas has went down to $2 a gallon, I have nice clothes, I can buy any action figure I want, and I have a reasonable amount of money every week. I actually enjoy going to work everyday, and finally feel like I have a career. Not to mention I have a wonderful boyfriend, great friends, a supportive mother, and GOD is hottest thing right now!

My life is really not that bad, so if I can't get a new computer, its ok.
So what I'm going to do is just take my computer to somewhere that can fix the problem, and just keep it until the money comes in where I can buy a new one. Fixing it will be much less then anyway. Just erase everything, and start over! I don't have the original windows xp cd, but Im sure they can figure something out.

I'll focus on getting my credit together, and just save the money for a real emergency.
I'm sure GOD will send some money my way, if I need it, and deserve it.

I just had to let this out because it was really bothering me.
Thanks for listening.

perfection in the process

I was moved by a scripture in Genesis, that seemed very inspirational to me:

"And the Lord said, Behold, the people is one, and they have all one language; and this they begin to do: and now nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do." - Genesis 11:6

This line to me, commits to GOD's wisdom of the unlimited potential of man. We together as one, can do many great and amazing things, and thus also do many ungrateful things as well.

The scripture is taken from the context of the story of the Tower of Babel. The story is used as an origin behind different languages. Many believe that man was trying to build a tower to heaven, to be equal or over throw GOD, thus GOD "confusing" the language of the builders to stop the construction.

I think that this is a mistranslation. By understanding the context of the Babylonians, the reasoning of building Ziggurats, which the Tower of Babel is, was to create a dwelling place for their GOD to enter Earth. They wanted to create a place for GOD to be one with man, not to be over God. Such a place can be seen as a notable honor to GOD's power.

The debate of creating such a "tower" is debatable. Let alone which GOD they created the Tower of Babel for.

In any case, let us look at the intention of the story, if humanity was just trying to honor GOD, why would GOD come down to "confuse" the language of the builders?

Another reasoning of building the Tower was for human beings to stay put in the land of Shinar. They wished to make a name for themselves in the land they were in. Some believe that "making a name for themselves" means to create a name for themselves above GOD... but could this also mean that they just wanted to create a great nation? Let us become the "United States of America," for example. Let us create a country that we can call our own, and be recognized for our human potential. Let us build a great city, but also show honor to God with this tower. yet, They did not wish to go out into the rest of the world. They did not want to scatter, but stay put and be as one people.

It is an conceivable thought to say that GOD created the "confusion of language" as a process of letting human beings know that humans should go out into the earth and multiple, so that they can bring forth not just one nation, but many nations? "Be Fruitful & Multiply." This was a time right after the so called "Great Flood of Noah" Would not the world need to be explored more?

Could not the "confusion of languages" be a test to humanity's potential? Can you still create a world even when you can not understand each other verbally? Can the world be wonderful not only in one language, but in many languages?

God in the original biblical story did not destroy the tower, the people just gave up. Human beings made a choice. This also reminds me of another passage from the Conversations With God Book:

"There is perfection in the process, and all life arrives out of choice. It is not appropriate to interfere with choice, not to question it. It is particularly inappropriate to condemn it. What is appropriate is to observe it, and then do what ever what might be done to assist the soul in seeking and making a higher choice. Be watchful there for of the choices of others, but not judgmental. Know that there choice is perfect for them and this moment now, yet stand ready to assist them should the moment come when they seek a newer choice, a different choice, a higher choice. Move in the communion with the souls of others, and there purpose, there intention will be clear to you.

This is what Jesus did with those he healed. And with all those lives he touched, Jesus healed all those who came to him, or who sent others to him, supplicating for them. He did not perform a random healing to have done so would have to violate a sacred law of the universe. Allow each soul to walk its path." - CWG B1

This to me was a realization of GOD's ability to know what is best for humanity, and also having faith in the ability of GOD's creation. We have to understand the perfection in the process. Even when can't see the finish line, GOD CAN! Even when we don't see the purpose of GOD, GOD DOES! Even when we as human beings don't have faith in ourselves, GOD WILL!