UnEmployment Rehab

Sorry I didn't get a chance to write yesterday, but I will do two post today! Maybe I'm not as bad as I think. I have moments where I break down. Two nights ago was that! After some talk, some sleep and some space... I feel like I'm back on the road to feeling better. When u don't have a job and u feel like u lost your self worth... It effects you on the inside. You feel like u don't deserve things like friendship cause you can't be happy go lucky around them, or you don't have the money to hang... It's a lot. When you see yourself slipping until somebody your not, it hurts.

In other news I had an interview today! I was happy about that, but was scared to share it with people because what if I don't get it? Then people may see me as a failure... And I hate to be that vulnerable. But I know I have to. A lot of people are hurting and even more so then me, so I have to just be positive and if the job is meant to be, they will call. I just have to keep moving...

I feel like I'm in rehab when I type on this thing lol.

Will holla at yah later! Thanks for reading.

i slept on the floor

im a bad person.

iDont care what you guys say. I am. I don't pay attention. I have a broken tooth. I am a stinky nasty funk. I can't please. I am broke. I am a procrastinator. but I don't mean to do or be these things...

I can only be a success by the things I do, not by who I think I am.

I wonder how many time I have apologized in my life?

I wonder how many times I will apologize in the future?

bad people sleep on the floor... like a bad dog.

who just shitted inside the house.

go to your corner shawn!

This is not just a VIDEO BLOG!

Ok so a couple of people have been wondering...

HAS YOUR BLOG TURNED INTO A VIDEO BLOG?

LOL... well no. At least that was not the intent. What has been taking up most of my time is looking for a job. Being unemployed has made me feel like I don't have a contribution to this world. I know that is not the case, but that is how I have been feeling. But I stay on my grind and stay busy.

Being part of the FIVEblackgUys has helped me to contain my creative side, and I appreciate that a lot! I really enjoy the two new members... shout out to Marco and Dyvon! I really think we are on the fast track to making a movement. I have a strong passion for video editing now, and I never thought I would! So YEAH ME!

Me and Remarkable are doing very well. He has a whole new set of friends that he is really happy about, so they come over, chill... eat. Whatever! I play happy Housewife for a change, LOL. I have lost contact with some of my friends for various reasons. Sometimes I feel like they don't want to hang out with me because I'm unemployed. Sometimes I feel they don't want to hang out with me because they have to pick me up for us to chill. Sometimes I feel that they are into there own problems to really worry about mine. No matter what it is, I still care about them a lot, and that will never leave. I guess once I have my job, I will have more energy to be "SHAWN" again.

Im going to post again tommorrow, cause I do want to start writing again, it may be shorter then usual, but we will see...

Later guys!

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